My friends and I tend to be very nocturnal creatures. We stay up all the time into the wee hours of the night, which explains why we started our little fireworks show after midnight on the 5th of July. It was a total blast playing around with explosives such as firecrackers and roman candles. Here’s a small compilation of our event. Everything was recorded from my phone, so please excuse the quality. Other than that, enjoy! :)
How is everybody? I hope that you all are doing very well and kicking things off right this new year! ^O^
Yesterday was such a lazy day. I had so much to do and ended up doing nothing at all. My laundry is still dirty and I still need to visit the school to inquire some info about financial aid. Though I was pretty dead during the daytime, things started to become lively during the night. Matt and I decided to treat our friend Devo, who turned 21 yesterday, to a small birthday surprise. Nothing too big, just cake, snacks, and a great time together with the rest of our friends. Happy 21st Devo! :)
I don’t really blog about this, but after having a talk with one of my best friends Devo, I decided to get my thoughts straight on paper (or on a Linux server HDD platter if you want to get excessively technical like the dork that I am.)
All the time these random questions run through my mind. “Who will I be with in the future” “Where is she?” “Do I already know her?” “Will she feel as lucky to have me as I will to have her?” I can’t even begin to scrape the surface of how many of these questions come across my mind. Many of them are so random and at times, really lame. “Will she make my heart melt when she smiles?” “Will she be a girl that I confidently present and introduce to my mother?” The list goes on.
I’m really not the type to talk about relationships. Cause first of all, I’m not even in one. Perhaps also because I constantly give people the impression that I’m better off alone. I don’t exactly have a long track history of dating you know. But nonetheless, I always strive to impress, even when I’m not trying to. I don’t want to give girls the impression that I’m just some jerk or some typical uneducated guy who doesn’t know anything. I try to be as kind as possible to girls at all times, which may have something to do with how my mother raised me. But even then so, I kind of feel like I’m doing it wrong.
I remember reading an article a while back, perhaps about a year ago, about how nice guys never get the girls. It talked about how nice guys always get walked over by girls and how they’ll always lose their girls to the guys who are more “confident” and “manly.” After reading that article, I felt kind of hurt. It made me reflect upon myself because I kind of consider myself to be this nice guy. “Maybe I am just being too nice to these girls.” “Maybe I should just try to become a jerk, then they’ll notice me.” No. That’s just not the way it works.
Even though I know in my mind that I’m a nice guy, I know that the article was not talking about me. The article talked about how nice guys always put women on pedestals and are always wishy-washy and clingy. I’m a nice guy, it’s naturally in my blood. But if it’s anything I hate being or seeing, it’s clingy. I’ve cared very deeply for my all of my girlfriends in the past (hell I still do) but I have never obsessed over any of them. I’ve never given a girl the impression that I need them in order to live or move on. Even more, I hate it when people do it. I really pity and look down upon people that become obsessive over others. It’s an unnecessary practice and an excellent display of idiocy. People who obsess over others with gifts and emotional behaviors do it to make themselves feel good. They think that making that other person happy is the only way to make themselves happy. It’s not. You don’t need that person, you simply want them.
So what kind of girl do I want? Well, I’ll tell you. Above anything, I want a girl that wants but doesn’t need me. My girl will be one who is able to prove that she can be strong, confident, and independent on her own. She will be one that never ceases to impress and competes to be a step ahead of me. I want someone that will never slow me down or hold me back from the important things in life. Someone that sets high standards for herself and never falls below it. She will be a girl that I can proudly present to my mother without any hesitation and say, “Mom, I want to introduce you to my girlfriend.” I want her to be able to do the same with her parents. She’s gonna be as cute as a button and I’m going to be proud to call her mine. My girl isn’t going to be some desperate helpless romantic, she is going to be nothing short of an amazing woman.
I don’t know when I will meet this person (or if I already have) but until then, I will happily wait for her. However long it takes.
Hello everybody, did you all have a good Thanksgiving? I hope so.
Thanksgiving was pretty good stuff. Was able to hang out with friends and just have a good time (and a good dinner). We decided to get Krystle in the photogenic mood and take a few shots. Some of the places we planned on visiting weren’t lit the way we expected them to be (or weren’t even lit at all). The photos came out very well nonetheless. Krystle didn’t know exactly what type of pose to do. I tried to think of some poses from the top of my head such as the mantle or that cute fist-to-cheek pose that a lot of Koreans seem to do. Even though I saw this funny video about camera poses, I just could not think of that many at the time. Nonetheless, she did them all without hesitation and with the most enthusiasm possible. Very great photos. Take a look at the gallery below and be sure to tell me how they look. :)
After playing around with my new Nikon SB-600 Speedlight for a bit, I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t need it and it’s not for me. It would be cool if  I were able to take advantage of it’s wireless flash capabilities (here’s some amazing examples from a photographer who uses external flashes wirelessly), but unfortunately my camera doesn’t support it. Relying solely on the light source being on top of the camera just doesn’t cut it. While some photos look nice with the flash, most photos end up looking better with natural light. I invested in my 35mm 1.8f NIKKOR lens to get the most of natural lights so I will just keep it at that. I’ll be returning the flash tomorrow. When I purchase a better camera in the future, I’ll buy one that supports wireless flash and invest in external flashes.
It’s 3:17am as I am typing this and Black Friday starts in about an hour and a half. I’m so glad that I don’t have to work until 9am. I’ll be sleeping for a few hours and then work until 7PM. Oh Black Friday… how you always seem to keep me on my feet, even if I’m not shopping. I hope that you all will continue to stay safe have a great Thanksgiving weekend!
