I’ve been feeling really stressed lately and I don’t know why. There’s just too much on my mind, and for no good reason either. I’m worried about some people while missing others like crazy. Thoughts keep coming out of nowhere and I can’t even begin to try to sort through it all. Summarizing all the people I miss into a simple, organized paragraph would be just as difficult as trying to see them all again. On top of that, what about finals? Finals. Finals. Finals. I must have talked about that a million times already. Maybe seeing everyone finish their finals this past week makes me jealous and stresses me out for the exams I have to take on Tuesday.

Anthony invited me to go to the Final Winter Dance Tournament in Austin but I was not able to go because of work, which is a real bummer. The Japanese style arcade scene is amazing and I never get the chance to experience events and gatherings as such. Anthony, I hope you, Matt, and Raymond had a good time. Hopefully kicked a lot of ass! Tell me how it went!! And speaking of work, I don’t know. I just don’t feel like working that much these days but I know I need to. Christmas cash just doesn’t happen to grow on trees you know. Psh. Just keep your head up Ruiz. Think positive thoughts and don’t give up! *shakes fist* 하이팅!! (fighting!!)

Darn. Now that song is stuck in my head and it’s been looping for the past hour. Everyone please continue to stay warm, safe, and healthy.

English final today and no more until next week! x)

Christmas time is here, so you know what that means: present shopping and gift giving. So what do I want for Christmas? Well after spending over $1000 last year on Christmas gifts, I’ve come to realize that material goods don’t mean anything, whether I’m giving or receiving them. I don’t care at all. Nobody can really give me a perfect gift because they can’t relate 100% to my interests. It’s like finding a needle in a haystack, you more than likely won’t find it. Instead of a material good, all I would want from ANYBODY is a Christmas card. Yes, that’s right. A Christmas card. I would like Christmas card, whether it’s bought or made, with a unique and personal message about anything. How you’ve been, how Christmas has been for you, holiday blessings, your secret feelings about me (just kidding), anything. Only something that unique and special can really make me happy. Not a gift, like an accessory or fancy electronic. For me, I don’t want Christmas to end up being a contest about who can give the best gift or who received the most presents. A time like this comes only once a year. I just want Christmas to feel like the way it’s supposed to be. (continue reading…)

Hello. It’s Saturday morning and I’m coming to you all empty-handed. No new photos, videos, or anything. But I did want to let you all know that I am doing fine. Hell, since my initiative to boycott unnecessary things, I’ve been doing great. It feels good coming home or waking up in the morning just to know that I can’t play games or waste time staying online. A lot more time has been dedicated to studying, and I know the payoff will be more than generously worth it. But here’s a quick rundown of what’s been going on this past week:

• If you don’t know already, I deactivated my Facebook account and boycotted all of my Xbox 360 games and controllers. Spending 500+ hours on a game and even more time browsing a social networking community just isn’t the thing to do anymore. Talking about it is a waste of time too.
• I’m becoming a studyholic. There’s good and bad things to this. The good is obvious, but the bad is that I’m always being invited to hang out or go out with friends. I’ve declined them all, with the exception of one.
• I’ve been showing a greater appreciation for music. I’m doing as much as possible to explore and expand my music interests. While Kpop will always be my number one (don’t judge me), finding new Hip-Hop, Trance, Electronica, Lounge, and Rock tunes is always a treat.I have a friend who’s into A Day to Remember. I tried to get into it, but all I learned from it is that screaming-type music is something I can’t study to. It usually results in me making a sarcastic remark such as “Could you please stop yelling? I can’t understand you..” I think I need to try harder hahaha.
• I’m working out again now. I’m done with being lazy. Just because I don’t have a P.E. class or an inspiring coach this semester doesn’t mean I should put off what I’ve been doing for a while. I swear, I’m convinced that I will have a body like 비(Rain) (No homo on this picture, I didn’t put those chocolate bars there) by the end of the year. That V-shaped torso is SICK and getting something like that is going to be a chore, but I’m sure gonna try. It’s alright, I all need is something to hype me up (like A Day to Remember, lol) and I’m ready to DO IT!!
• I saw this video. I like this video. This video is nice.

Today, I decided to stop playing Street Fighter IV (and any other video game for that matter) as an initiative to prepare myself properly for this semester of school. I have a habit of playing games or staying on the computer (doing nothing) when I know I should be studying. As a result, I end up regretting it. I will not be renewing my Xbox Live subscription when it expires this month. Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t stopped playing for good. When friends come over or if there’s a get-together, I’ll still play. It’s just that I won’t be playing on my own time anymore. I told Crimson Viper about the news, she’s still angry about it. She really wants to (crouch) Heavy Punch-> Thunder Knuckle cancel-> (crouch) Heavy Punch-> EX Seismic Hammer-> High Jump-> (in air) Heavy Burning Kick-> Burst Time my ass into oblivion. It’s alright though. Just like a real girl, I still love her and there’s a place for her in my heart. (rofl)

So… something random. I was cleaning out the shoe closet earlier today and I found my old trombone from middle school. I’ve had this thing since 6th grade. It’s in horrible, beat up condition; dents and scratches everywhere. It’s been over three years since I’ve played a trombone. I put it together and I remembered all of the positions. It must be a second nature thing, muscle memory. I tried to play it and it sounded horrible, it’s clearly broken. I decided to pawn it off for $20. May not be much, but I needed it taken off my hands. If I had taken better care of it, it would’ve sold for much more.

 

Another random, I’m thinking about buying a DSLR. Well actually, I almost DID. I almost made an impulse buy at work today on a Nikon D40, but decided to hold back. I mean, I have the money to pay for it (barely), but I have a small problem with parting with a large sum of money at once. You see, I usually tend to ball up and cry so hard until I end up throwing up what I ate for lunch all over the checkout counter. It’s a medical disease called “spending”. Nah, but seriously, I’m going to continue saving up  for a better camera. I know that I’m pretty new and beginner to this whole photography deal, but I’m just going to hold off, do a bit of research, and invest in a better camera. I’ll be throwing up chunks then.

I have a week until school starts. Just enough time for me to start working out again and practice some 한글.

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Currently Listening To: G-Dragon – 1년 정거장 (Station 1 Year)

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